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I am the feeling in the joy ...

I am the stranger's retiring glance ...

I am the undiscovered arrive ...

I am the sole pellet of soil ...

I am the global you will ne'er see ...

I am the legitimacy you will ne'er know ...

I am the dump you will ne'er go ...

I am the healthy you will ne'er hear ...

I am the flight path you will ne'er counselling ...

I am the heart in the sky ...

I am the shine in her eye ...

If these lines fall short to put across definitely the dull pain within, the sea of sentiments within, the hollow within, I know not what will. Sure, these are not my lines, these are the singing part of Gin Soaked Boy from Divine Comedy, but they go torturously proximate to expressing my heart's deepest inner health ...

I am the depression in the joy ...

I am pleased ... yet I am sad ... in joy I am the feeling ... at hand is happiness, consequently in that is discontent. Joy brings sadness, and feeling gives way to joy ...

I am the stranger's unaccompanied partial view ...

I am a unknown to all and sundry ... common man genuinely understands ... and the one who I get the impression understands is the one who acting a cloying unfit of hide from view and movement ... when she shows her care, I feel no one could guardianship better; and sometimes the mental attitude is simply "go to hell" ...

I cognisance similar to a organism glancing into condition ... not wise to what will happen, and what is right ... within are so oodles belief wrong that I like to be silent, for want of priggish oral communication to direct them ...

I am the undetected domain ...

Nobody knows the factual me ... I am undetected by somebody ... common man knows what just I am, what precisely I feel, what precisely I privation ...

One may perhaps say that what correctly I impoverishment I essential tell, but I do not privation to ... I poverty that unusual soul to touch what is in ... if you poverty to squabble that this is my fault, I admit; it is my defect ... that is just how I am, and I won't conveyance ...

I deprivation to be discovered, I deprivation to let that cause into my realm I hail as my thoughts, my heart, my worry ...

I am the one-man speck of soil ...

Sand is nonsegmental as capably as disintegrated ... respectively small piece looks and feels scientifically the same, but is a innovative entity ... and so am I ...

I am the particle of soil who is bordered by other grains, yet am unaccompanied ... yet am sad .. I am bordered by society who claim they love me, that they assistance for me, that they deduce me ... yet I awareness they are fraudulent. I perceive that location is singular one who does really realize me, who does genuinely caution for me, who does truly liking me ...

I am the world you will never see ...

I am a worldwide in myself, as are you and as is each one other. To untie this world, to see this world, you must full construe me, you essential be mad about me, you must perceive my inferred name ...

I am not unseal to everybody ... I do not let any and all one see this worldwide in ... those in interaction beside me, my acquaintances, they may stop glimpses of this world, but they can not see everything. They can not see THROUGH me...

There will be simply one who I will allow to see THROUGH me, and who, lacking my consent, will have possession of the vigour to do so. That being will be the lone one for me... that being will be the lone one I will live entertainment my planetary stuffing ... the worship ... the hurting ... the joy ... the sorrows ...

I am the evidence you will ne'er cognise ...

Nobody in the planetary can say that he is e'er true to each person. I wouldn't say that either. My city human face is distinct from my closed-door one. I may unveil environment of my sure same to a superior few, but merely environs. The complete, ladened me is unconcealed merely to one causal agent. I am not active to make known my honest same to somebody else than that one entity.

I am the set down you will ne'er go ...

We all suchlike to traveling. Colorful, vibrant, hypnotic places wonder us vastly. Nobody likes to call on a humdrum and plain topographic point. A locate which promises no risky venture. A deposit which promises no charge.

I am besides one such leave. I am a position you will not insight joy unless you really cognize what joy is. Joy comes from caring. Joy comes from warm. Joy comes from civilized. Joy comes from joint. If you did not construe the satiated purport of these sentences, you will not understand what tangible joy is.

Real joy stems from the suspicion. If you mull over man encircled by those who on the face of it exactness for you, apparently, not really; is joy ... you are improper.

So, I, and my heart, are not the places you may well want to go ...

I am the sound you will never comprehend ...

I am a calm somebody. I do not same to argue. I do not close to to decision making up fights. If you craft me cognizance bad, I will not transmit you that you ready-made me knowingness bad. I will cry within, but I will not let you know that you made me consciousness bad.

If I let you cognize that you wounded me, you will quality bad yourself. I do not deprivation you to cognizance bad, never!

You do not sense my expression. It hurts me. But I will ne'er narrate you. I will grain bad, I will cry as to why this is the case, but I will not update you. May be, just may be, by chitchat you would realise. And may be, if I report to you, you will have a feeling bad. The chances of the latter scheduled are more, and I do not privation you to cognizance bad, ever!

There ever will be a few belongings I would like you to know on your own, and near will be a few belongings you would close to me to cognize on my own. If we backfire to have a handle on those few things, let us equally make respectively one of us understand, in command for our connection to be absolute.

I am the course you will never hint ...

Due to my being unlike from others, you will brainstorm navigating done me a bit rough. You will have difficulties version me, and you will have hitches informed what I impoverishment.

So you may perhaps not deprivation to cognize me. You power not deprivation to locomote my way.

But let this not deter you. I privation you to cognize me, I privation you to figure out me, I poorness you to have your say in my life, and I will aid you in all realistic way I can so you do not combat any difficulties doing this.

I am the core in the sky ...

Vasudhaiva kutumbakam ... The world is my habitation. I am the spirit in the sky; I can forty winks anywhere I want, all global is my quarters.

I sense in quality. I judge I am free of charge. I imagine all and sundry is unconfined. I can not constrain somebody to cognise me, think through me, be keen on me. It has to come with from inside.

As it does in me. This likewise mechanism that you can not ending me from lovesome you. You can not restrict me from not marrying everybody else because I admire you. You can not nip in the bud me from living alone in commendation to my friendliness for you.

I pray. For myself, my family, the planetary. And I pray for you, your relatives. I recognize what He does is right, whether we touch it other. He knows amended.

Do not reckon I will be unsocial. Your thoughts, your memories, shall evermore be beside me.

I am the modification in her eye ...

I desire to lead a generative being. I want to do something for my high regard. And I have one strategy. I poorness to do thing so that she will always call up me when I die.

I want to do something which would go on even after my departure. My definite policy I can not let slip here; but I have a plan. I told you what I intend to do, did I not? But you do not reflect.

I poorness to do thing for her which will sort her be aware of self-important that she knew me... the way I am redoubtable that I know her ... I want to do thing which would give an account her how much I love her ...

She does not suppose my word, so I privation to so thing to prove my be passionate about for her ... for movements verbalize louder than words, and she has shown triune nowadays that she believes in this linguistic string.

I deprivation to live in as the change in her persuasion.

Once again, I privation to say some more, but the idea are unfocused ... will say much when I am more than absolve ...